LOVE Like You Really Mean It: As How GOD Meant His

I am quite aware of God’s love. As far as I can remember, even when I wasn't a convert yet, I knew and every people around me knew that there is a God and that He loves us. Only then I understood, though not fully comprehended, His love when I realized how He suffered in my stead to save me from eternal damnation. That unfathomable love that I never deserve but is lavishly given to me grace after grace.  That’s why I sometimes ask myself, “Do I really love You, Lord? Yes, definitely! But the thing is, “How much do I really love You?”

Is it no-nonsense to just confess or tell my friends that I love You?

Is posting and/or liking on Facebook or any social media things that show my appreciation worthwhile?

Is skimming through the pages of the Bible signifies how You really mean to me?

Is praying everyday enough to show that You truly mean more than anything?

Is doing charitable works or sacrificial offerings worthy to reciprocate Your immeasurable love?

Is it enough to just always be present every Sunday Service and all church gatherings?

Is my language of love towards You parallels Your way of how You want me to?

Do I really love You Lord like how you want me to mean it? The Scripture says in Mark 12:30,

“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul

and with all your mind and with all your strength.”

More of a self-realization that loving You is more than any word I can ever say, more than any deed I could ever do. More than anything else, it’s how I give my whole heart, soul, mind, and strength to You. This self-check reminds me of how am I as a lover of the man You gave me as a partner-in-life. I am almost-all-the-time thinking of him, always trying to do things to please him, always considering him in every step that I take, always ensuring him of our love and so on and so forth. So as how You related ‘Your love for the church’ to ‘how a husband should love his wife and the wife to respect his husband’, so please allow me to relate my love for You as how a lover is to his beloved. So now my love for You would be defined by…

Do I think of You all the time?

Do I always go all-out to please You?

Do I always strive to avoid things that hurt You?

Do I always consider You in every step that I take?

Do I always give time to talk and especially listen to You?

Do I always ensure You of my love by choosing You over each and every thing I consider important?

Do I make every effort to love You the way You want me to?

My sweet Lord, I want to love You the way You want me to. I want to give you my all and not what's just left of me but this heart of mine is weak and shaky so please oh please help and strengthen me each day, for I long to give back though I’ll never be worthy.

I love you Lord!